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Dr. Jeffrey L. Smalldon
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Dr. Jeffrey L. Smalldon
Maybe there’s a pretentious bone somewhere in Jeffrey Smalldon’s body. If there is, you won’t find evidence of it in the pages of That Beast Was Not Me. His book is a fascinating memoir of his five decades of tangling with the likes of Charles Manson, Squeaky Fromme, Susan Atkins, Ted Bundy, John Wayne Gacy, Donald Harvey, and Thomas Lee Dillon.
While reading Beast, I was struck by Smalldon’s disarming candor. It’s one of the qualities that makes it possible for him to move back and forth between two very different perspectives: that of an inquisitive but inexperienced undergraduate student, eager to discover avenues of direct access to the minds of Manson and his disciples; and that of a board-certified forensic psychologist, which is what he became years later, after two of his co-workers were savagely slain by an unknown assailant at the large private general hospital where he was then an administrator.
Smalldon has produced a sprawling, page-turner of a book that’s at once entertaining, instructive, and utterly unique. And did I mention that his father was a career special agent with the FBI?
Take it from someone who knows: Smalldon’s a mindhunter — and a crack shot at that. If you’re a fan of true crime, you’ll love That Beast Was Not Me.
After his college professor suggested he write a letter to Charles Manson, Jeff Smalldon embarked on a 50-year odyssey into the twisted minds of mass and serial killers.
In this riveting book, we hear the voices of the world’s most notorious murderers as they try to justify their acts and their lives. The best action, however, plays out in the psychological space between the killers and the people who comprise their audience. It is in that space where we witness how Smalldon reacts to each exchange and then plans his next move, how the killers impact his well-being and challenge his sense of self, and how, over the long haul, these intense and troubling encounters with evil irrevocably change Smalldon and shape his vocation as a forensic psychologist.
With humor, literary flair, and deep psychological insight, Dr. Smalldon tells a fascinating tale about the worst people on the planet, and about ourselves.
What a book! From page one, That Beast Was Not Me grabbed me by the lapels and refused to let go. Jeffrey Smalldon is an undeniable expert on murder and murderers, but to my pleasant surprise, he’s also a first-rate storyteller. Come for the fascinating insights into the killers and cases you thought you knew (Manson, Gacy, Bundy), but stay for the stories you’ve never heard before — and will never forget.
Jeffrey Smalldon spent 50 years staring into the abyss and returned with incredible revelations about the minds and motives of serial killers, mass murderers, and all sorts of other evil men who move and live among us. That Beast Was Not Me might make it difficult for you to sleep at night because of its troubling insights, and because you’ll be eager to find out what’s coming on the next page. Only a skilled psychologist could coax the worst killers to talk so candidly and then pen such an intriguing memoir about his experiences — and that description fits Dr. Smalldon perfectly.
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